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Then the door reopened, letting in a blast of winter air and someone she’d been thinking about since the moment she left him alone at his house two days before. She allowed herself a single assessing glance at Zan, then deciding he looked back in good health—and as handsome as always—she turned and pushed through the swinging panel to put the countertop between them.

  Stacking the papers on her desk, she threw him a polite smile. “Hey, there.”

  “Hey back,” Zan said, looking curiously about the room. “This is nice.”

  “It’s small.” Truthfully, she could have run Maids by Mac from her duplex, but it seemed more...businesslike to have a dedicated office space. The rent didn’t kill because the office was, indeed, Lilliputian-sized. And with Zan’s broad shoulders and long legs between the four walls, it felt just that much more crowded.

  No wonder she could hardly breathe.

  Mac took another peek at him. He wore dark denim and a high-end, high-tech-looking winter jacket with a wealth of pockets that probably cost more than her monthly profit margin. “Did you need something?”

  “To say thanks for the groceries. They kept me fed and indoors for another twenty-four hours, which allowed me to kick the bug for good.”

  “Awesome.” She rubbed at the touch pad of her laptop, bringing the screen to life so she could focus on the spreadsheet there instead of the man and his big...presence.

  “I also hoped to talk you into coffee with me.”

  “I’m too busy to go...” she began, the words automatic, but they trailed off as he placed two paper cups on the counter. So eager to avoid looking at him too long, she’d neglected to notice what he’d carried.

  “From Oscar’s,” he said, pushing one of the beverages her way. “They told me your favorite order.”

  “I...” She was forced to leave the desk to retrieve it. Refusing seemed too rude, even though she’d decided the safest way to deal with Zan and all the memories his presence invoked was to keep her distance. Instead of rattling those bones she wanted to pick with him, she’d decided to let them settle. That would, she figured, keep the unwelcome Ghost of Love Gone By as undisturbed and inactive as possible. “Uh, thanks.”

  Watching her, he shook his head as she took her first sip. “I can’t get over the fact that you drink coffee. When I left you wouldn’t touch the stuff.”

  “People change.” Some traveled the world. Took lovers named Simone. “I learned to like coffee.”

  He leaned against the counter as he picked up his own beverage. “The village and the mountains are much the same, though.”

  “Still beautiful.”

  With a smile, he toasted her with his coffee. “Present company included.”

  She ignored the stupid flutter in her middle. “Well, see, you’re much the same, too. Still a charmer.”

  He only smiled again at that, so she moved back to her desk and fiddled with a pencil. “This is my paperwork day, so...”

  “Oh, you won’t get rid of me so easily.”

  Well, that didn’t seem fair when he’d left the mountains so easily before, she thought, frowning at her cup. Not to mention that he’d left without even taking the photo of them she’d presented him with before he’d packed his truck and driven it down the hill. That knowledge, she had to admit, still rankled.

  She had a matching picture herself, now relegated to the dark corner in her chest of drawers under the single socks she was too cheap to throw away.

  Hey, you never knew when their partner might show up again.

  After all, hadn’t Zan returned?

  Not that they were parts of a pair or anything.

  Annoyed at her train of thought, she squared her shoulders, took a bracing swallow of espresso and steamed milk, and told herself, rude or not, it was time to show him out.

  Of her office.

  Of her could-have-been file, too.

  Clearing her throat, she met his gaze. “Zan—”

  “I brought you something else.”

  The expression on his face gave her sudden pause. It was half guarded and half pleased. Exactly how he’d looked when he’d presented her with her eighteenth birthday present—the receipt for four brand-new tires for her battered baby SUV.

  I know it’s not romantic, he’d said.

  Then she’d thrown herself into his arms, grateful, touched to the bone because those tires would keep her safe on the mountain roads for years to come. He’d known pride would never have allowed her to accept them as charity, but as a birthday gift...yes.

  She thought of what Angelica had said to Brett the night of their wedding reception. You know what I need.

  But the way of those memories lay danger and not the distance she’d decided upon, so she returned to the moment at hand. “A croissant? One of Oscar’s cinnamon buns? I warn you, I don’t like the lemon cake.”

  He grinned. “I recall your aversion to citrus paired with sweets.”

  It took effort to pretend that didn’t stab. He remembered? “That’s right. No lemon bars. No key lime tarts.”

  “But you indulged my love of peach pie.”

  Mac’s body froze. Had he really said that? Peach pie? Um, sexual innuendo, much?

  But before she could think of how to respond, he pulled something out of one of his many coat pockets and set it on the counter. The item was about the size of a large baked potato. Which turned out to be a very weird first impression of the actual object.

  Her gaze glued to it, she moved forward, unable to stifle her curiosity.

  “It’s a Russian nesting doll.”

  Her fingertip stroked the smooth surface. More than that, it was a work of art. On the carved hourglass shape, a woman’s face and figure decorated the pale wood. Dark-haired, blue-eyed, she was delicate and so, so lovely.

  “I watched the artist paint her,” Zan said. He cleared his throat. “She, uh, makes them by request.”

  Her head shot up. It didn’t take a genius to realize the rendered woman had her coloring...even, perhaps, her features. Mac put her hands behind her back. “It’s wonderful.”

  His mouth quirked. “I thought so.” Then he picked it up and twisted.

  A bleat of protest escaped her mouth.

  He laughed. “Watch.”

  It was a work of moments. Inside, were five other figurines, each one opening to reveal a smaller figure, similarly painted, until the smallest was revealed, the size of a thimble.

  Mac stared at them, noting that each had the same features and each wore a beautiful blue gown, highlighted with what looked like gold leaf. So exquisite. Inhaling a breath, she shifted her gaze to Zan again. “For me? Really?”

  One of his long fingers brushed the painted hair of the largest of the dolls and his gaze tracked the stroke. “Yeah. I’ll miss her, though. She’s been with me a long time.”

  Like the long time he’d been gone. Ignoring the hot pressure behind her eyes, she watched him renest the dolls into one.

  Then he cradled it in his hands like a kitten, bringing it close to his face. “We had many the long, dark-night conversations, didn’t we, girl?” he asked, addressing the piece.

  Oh, man. That burn intensified behind Mac’s eyes and she felt a traitorous twinge in her chest. On long dark nights, had he needed a friend? During those lonely hours, had he been talking to a surrogate for her?

  She curled her hands into fists to keep herself from reaching out to him. You need to keep your distance, she reminded herself. You need to keep up your guard.

  But when he offered the object to Mac, she couldn’t help but lean closer to take it from him. As her fingers neared, he lifted it just out of reach. “Now, what am I going to get in return for this little pretty?” he asked with a roguish glint in his eye.

  It was charming as heck, so the look s
he sent him was stern. “A simple ‘thank you’ won’t do?”

  “Surely you can do better than that. Think of the miles I’ve traveled to bring her to you. The terrain I’ve overcome! The dangers I’ve braved!”

  “The bullshit you’ve dished out along the way,” she said drily.

  His lips twitched. It drew her attention, reminding her of kisses, hours of them, that mouth on hers, taking her to new and heated places. That mouth, exploring new and heated places.

  Peach pie. She felt a blush rush up her neck and cursed the persistent memories.

  “I think you’ve turned into a cruel and cold woman,” Zan declared.

  She latched on to that. “And don’t you forget it.”

  “But still,” he said, in that teasing tone, “one small kiss doesn’t seem too much to ask.” His fingertip tapped the edge of his jaw. “And then I’ll be on my way.”

  And then she’d be safe from him, her space once more her own. And yet... “Zan...”

  He wiggled the doll back and forth. “Please?” His smile was boyish and friendly. “With sugar on top?”

  “Good God,” she muttered but found herself giving in to his ridiculous request. Bellying up to the counter, she closed the gap between them. Then she fisted her hand in the lapel of his jacket, drew his face close and rose onto her tiptoes. “Thank you,” she grumbled.

  And moved her lips to his cheek.

  At the same instant that he turned his mouth to meet hers.

  CHAPTER FIVE

  WHEN THE DOOR to the lakefront, Mediterranean-style villa swung open, Zan’s gaze dropped to find a smiling, gap-toothed little kid, and Zan’s already good mood bobbed even higher. “You must be Poppy’s boy,” he said. The family resemblance was strong.

  “Mason Walker. Almost Mason Walker Hamilton.” The boy talked as if he was fifteen instead of five or so. “I’m a best man.”

  “Yep,” Zan agreed. “You strike me as a good kind of guy.”

  “He means he’s my best man...when I marry Poppy.” A dark-haired grown person strode up behind the kid and held out his hand. “Ryan Hamilton.”

  “Zan Elliott.” He cocked his head, taking in the other man’s famous face as he passed him a bottle of wine. “I heard it through the grapevine, but it’s hard to believe Poppy Walker snagged one of Hollywood’s most entrenched bachelors.”

  “Has me wrapped around her little finger.” He looked cheerful about it.

  Then Poppy herself crowded into the doorway, and Zan was reminded of how wrapped around her finger he used to be. “Hah,” she said to Ryan. “You knew I was behind you when you said that.”

  “Doesn’t mean it isn’t true.”

  She sent her fiancé an indulgent look, then grabbed Zan’s arm and tugged him into the foyer. “Come in, it’s cold out there.” His hands were in her small ones as she took a long look at him. Her brilliant smile was as warm as the hug that ensued after.

  “I’m so glad you could come to dinner,” she said against his chest, squeezing hard.

  He returned the embrace, charmed by her all over again. “Not mad that I practically invited myself?”

  “Practically?” She leaned back and grinned at him. “You did invite yourself.”

  A big dog pushed between them. “Who’s this?” he asked.

  Mason ran his hand over the canine’s big head. “Our dog, Grimm.”

  “So domesticated, Pop,” Zan said, his gaze lingering on her. When he’d left she’d been a teenager, coltish and sweet as candy. “It looks good on you. Beautiful, actually.”

  Ryan’s brows rose. “Uh-oh. Do I have to take you out?”

  “Oh, you,” she said to her man, then grabbed Zan’s hand again and began towing him forward. “Though I did have a wild crush on him when I was a girl.”

  “You did?” he asked, as she pushed him onto a stool drawn up to the granite island in a spacious kitchen with views of the lake. “How come I didn’t see that?”

  “Because you only had eyes for Mac, of course.”

  What could he say? But he was glad he was spared from answering when Ryan pressed a cold bottle of beer in his hand. “Thanks, man.”

  “No problem—”

  The peal of the front doorbell interrupted him. Grimm barked and the Walker-Hamilton household inhabitants rushed for the foyer again. Zan slugged down a mouthful of beer before they came back, ushering people in front of them.

  Zan got to his feet, prepared for more introductions and greetings.

  Shay Walker, who had turned chic on him, squealed like the young girl she used to be when she caught sight of him. He caught her up, whirled her around, and then they grinned at each other. “Wow, you grew up good,” she said.

  “Back atcha.” Then he turned and held out his hand to a big man with wide shoulders and a sturdy build. “Jace, right?”

  The other man’s grip was strong. “Nice to meet you.” He indicated a teenager a step behind him. “My daughter, London.”

  She sketched a wave. Zan followed suit.

  Then Brett was in his face. “You live. And you’re here, once again mooching a Walker meal.”

  “Some things never change.” Except others did, because then he was meeting the man’s wife, Angelica, an exotic brunette with a smile that could melt steel. He glanced at his old friend. “I’m speechless.”

  Brett smiled, slow, his gaze resting on his bride’s face. “I’m a lucky SOB.”

  But Zan would swear that was him as the chatter rose around him. When he’d called Poppy to say hello, she’d mentioned a family dinner and, as she’d said, he’d invited himself. So once again he was in the midst of chatter and laughter and teasing, just as if he’d never left. Their warmth and camaraderie had always been on loan, of course; he wasn’t really part of their clan, but he fell right into the comfort of it, like a big feather bed.

  Okay, he might have experienced a brief pang of melancholy when he compared this convivial atmosphere to the mausoleum-ish air of his grandfather’s house, knowing he’d have to return to it at evening’s end, but then somebody handed him another beer. Following that, Poppy passed him a small plate of appetizers—including little tiny hot dogs covered in puff pastry that a man would have to be dead not to appreciate—and then another presence strode into the kitchen.

  Mackenzie.

  Mason claimed her attention first, followed by Grimm. She bent to kiss the boy’s head and followed up by petting the dog. Then she straightened, and he swallowed, hard. For some reason his throat felt tight.

  A big, ivory-colored sweater swallowed her slim frame. It had a lace inset at the neck, making it nearly transparent from her collarbone to her cleavage. Ruffles of the stuff hung from the knitted hem. Denim clung to her legs and she wore tall leather boots that strode across the floor as she moved among her family members, dispensing hugs and kisses.

  Then she turned toward the island, where he sat, and the crowd shifted.

  Their eyes met.

  A chill washed over his skin as her gaze turned icy.

  Whoops. She was still mad about that kiss. He popped off the stool and reached for the open wine bottle nearby. A free glass sat beside it and he poured out a healthy dose, then took it to Mac like a peace offering. “How was your day?” he asked, pressing the stem into her hand.

  “Why are you here?”

  “To eat dinner,” Poppy called out, fortunately leaving out the part where he’d invited himself. “And it’s time.” She removed a huge casserole dish from the oven.

  The exodus from the kitchen to the dining room and its long table covered over any further Zan-Mac awkwardness. She ended up across from him and a couple of seats down, but that was all right. If she and her temper needed space after their lip-lock in her office a couple of days before, so be it.

>   Okay, maybe he was a little ticked that she was ticked. It wasn’t as if it had been intentional.

  Lie.

  But he hadn’t intended it to happen, that was true. The opportunity had just presented itself as she moved her lips toward him, coming in for a cheek-swipe. Instead of offering up the side of his face, he’d cheated just a little and provided his mouth instead.

  Sue him.

  He hadn’t even tried any tongue.

  But still, the kiss had been electric. Zing. Hiss. Wowza.

  Mac had panicked, jerking away and staring at him through accusatory eyes. That won’t happen again, she’d said.

  He’d responded with a shrug and left as he’d promised, happy enough that it had happened once. Not that he’d explained any of that. But why wouldn’t he be pleased that the old black magic had set off a spark? It only went to prove that his memory had not overelaborated all the sputter and steam that had been kissing Mac.

  The flames and the burn that had been bedding Mac.

  Best not to think about that now, though. He applied himself instead to helpings of an excellent lasagna, green salad and garlic bread. As the meal wound down, he tuned into the talk around the table. Then he had to turn to the woman on his right, Angelica, Brett’s wife.

  “What cabins?” he asked in an undertone.

  “Do you know about the mountain, the fire?”

  He nodded. The Walkers owned a tract of land, the last from what their ancestors had purchased when they’d first arrived to log the mountains 150 years before. A small ski resort had been situated there, run by the family, which had burned to the ground when they were kids. “They’re rebuilding?”

  “Can’t,” Angelica reported. “Their dad sold off the top of the mountain—”

  “To a man who refuses to speak with us,” her husband said from the other side of the table. He must have caught the drift of Zan’s conversation with Angelica. “Victor Fremont.”

  “No spitting,” Ryan put in, holding up a hand.

  While no actual saliva was involved, the siblings turned their heads to the side and pretended to spit on the rug at their feet. Four shoes rubbed there and then four fingers made crosses over their respective hearts.